jesssabear

Modesto, California.

When I'm in Disneyland, my hotel is my home.

I was in Hawaii, and my mom and I were napping, and I got up and crawled to the window and it was super rainy and the palm trees were blowing super fast. My mom says it was a dream, but I beg to differ.

I can't stop biting my nails /:
I carry around a nail filer with me.

It depends on the game, like, on the Sims, I go in with codes, and, well.. That's the only game I play.

I'd want to fly!
I don't want to be invisible, because people don't need to know EVERYTHING. And that's basically what being invisible is about-or playing jokes on people. I wouldn't like that.
I don't want to teleport anywhere because when i travel, I want to do it with someone. And teleporting is for traveling, I'd think.

Flying because when you fly, you don't need to drive. You get fresh air, and you can fly anywhere- which is almost like teleporting, but more time.

The first thing that pops into my head is strawberries, or chocolate.
But, when I really think about it, it does nothing.

I'd have to say rice.

I will sit here and tell you of all the reasons of why I love Jimmy.
He gives me this feeling of security and immortality. That's not usually used as a good feeling, but trust me, it's wonderful.
He's such a beautiful person. And it makes him even better because he doesn't know he's beautiful
Jimmy, you mean so much to me. I won't ever let you go.
I'm sorry for doing things without knowing it.
I'm sorry!
I love you.
I am in love with you.
I am madly in love with you.
I love every inch and every foot of you.
I love every bone in your body.
I love every smile you give off.
I love your radiating aura.
I love every kiss that you give me.
Every hug that you happily give me.
Every look that you give me.
Every smile that you flash to me.
Every everything that you do to me, or give to me.

I know I'm young. but is it possible to know where I'll be in 10 or 20 or 30 or 40 years?
I know I'm really young! And so is he!
But I'm so sure of this.
And when I'm sure, I am totally sure.
And so is he.


I love you, Jimmy Tracy Nguyen.

My favorite game was Monopoly! I always played it with Kirsten, my best friend. But we hardly ever finished. Like, we had our moms help out with the math and all of the technical things involved with Monopoly.
Now, my favorite game is Monopoly and Life.

I need to play more board games.

In the last few days of 8th grade, me and Lyssa were walking in the cafeteria. Lyssa had her boot on her foot with crutches and she was trying to eat chips at the same time, but she slipped and the chip went flying and Lyssa and I were cracking up because she pulled me down with her!

8 days left of school!
Apperantly we get our yearbooks next week and I'm so excited. This is my favorite part

Oh! Check THIS out..



we're in Oakdale's yearbook :D

hay guiz-
Today was fun, we had our dance production concert during school. Today flew by so quick. Like, before I knew it.. it was what? 8th period. Or 7th period. I kept thinking that we didn't have lunch yet. I don't think a school day has every gone by that fast. :)
 
12 days

yes, 12 days until school is out. On Thursday, June 5th at 1:12, I get out of school for 3 months. : )
All though Jimmy is leaving, I'll see a lot of him before he leaves for a month :/
BUT I'll see him. And then he'll come back in July. Apperantly before my birthday! But he hasn't said the exact date, and (sh) I think he won't tell me for some reason. :)?!

Pues, yo tengo leer "The Gates of Fire"

As you and I unwind with each other
You wrap your fervent, consolating words around me

You speak.

Your voice slides into me like an over mixed milkshake
It's silkiness is as awkward as can be
As our eyes meet, I stare into your soul and you into mine
The crevices of your mouth stretch
and happiness blinds me.

You smile.

And I smile back
But, damn, that smile of yours
It pierces through me.
It pierces through me as if I'm being shot by Cupid.
Your happiness leaks into something larger than life.

You laugh.

I laugh with you.
Your laughter. Soaring into the sky like stars
Your laughter creeps into me as I wanted and needed it to be.
Your laughter constructs a home and sojourns
Your fingers find their way to mine.

Your touch.

Our fingers have found home.
Your lips quiver at the very sight.
They saunter over to mine.
-Unprotected and vulnerable-
Your lips brush against mine and press ever so lightly.

You.

Your civility benignants me.
Your love creates circles I cannot escape.
I do not want to escape.

I escape my dreams and find reality.
I find your words, your smile, your laugh, your touch.
Dreams and reality have morphed into one.
Into you.

You.

Jimmy and I have been dating for 3 months today : )

1. Get the Mckey pretzels in Tommorrowland
2. Get a funnel cake in Frontierland with strawberries on it
   
3. And going to the Matterhorn while the fireworks are going in Disneyland. (You get the best view + shorter lines.)
4. And going on Tower of Terror, California Scremin, or Grizzly River Run at the last 30 minutes that California Adventure is open- but it has to be during the Electrical Parade. (The lines are shorter, and the rides are generally scarier at night.)
5. Watch the Electrical Parade!
6. Watch Fantasia!
7. Watch all of the shows and parades!
8. Meet as many characters as possible.
   
9. Especially Mickey and Minnie Mouse and Ariel and Sully and Cruella Deville and Captain Hooke.
10. Buy the coconut, chocolate covered Mickey faces on Main Street.
11. Churros. Churros. Churros.
12. Buy a churro.
13. Best time to go to the park is the opening and the closing.
14. No, but really.. park opening. until about 12, and after the fireworks and parades are over.
15. Easter Sunday is one of the best days to go.
16. March and October are some of the best months.
17. During school hours and in Fall and while schools are in session.
18. Goofy's kitchen has so many little kids. Be careful when you eat the carrot cake.
19. Tower of Terror will always be the best ride.
20. Indiana Jones will always be the best ride.
    
21. Space Mountain will always be the best ride.
22. Matterhorn will always be the best ride.
23. It's a Small Worlds is only needed every few years because of how long it is.
24. Kirsten Elizabeth Earl is still the best Disney companion.
25. Go more than one day! Four is the best. Five if you're lucky. Six if you want to be in Heaven.
26. Goofy might be a little crazy- for real.
27. Go to the buffet on Main Street (to your right, right before Tomorrowland)!
28. The best breakfast is in Tomorrowland, where Buzz Lightyear is. And another great breakfast place is on the wharf in California Adventure.
29. California Grand Hotel is completely worth the money.
30. Just.. Go buy a churro.
31. The teacups ARE mandatory.
32. Don't take the tour... I don't think anyone really even runs it.
33. Mickey has his movies playing on Main Street!
34. While waiting in line for Indiana Jones, don't get caught by the skulls and sharp objects- and don't touch things by the skulls and sharp objects that have signs saying not to touch them (do it).
35. While waiting in line for Space Mountain, find twins.
36. Also remember it's air conditioned inside.
37. Pirates of the Caribbean really is all it's cracked up to be.
38. If you have anybody with issues, do not go on Matterhorn.
39. The Embassy Suites and the Hyatt on Harbor Avenue by- the best restaraunt ever- Buca's are two amazing hotels.
40. When going to Buca's, get the small sizes. ANd get hte carmel and apple dessert. Their spaghetti is to die for.
41. The breakfast at the Embassy Suites is to die for.
42. Go on the Tower of Terror as many times as possible.
43. Get fast passes for the Tower of Terror, Grizzly River Run, California Screamin, Splash Mountain, and Indiana Jones.
44. Stay all day and night. Go back to your hotel during peak hours.
45. Sleep as little as possible. But nap during peak hours.
46. Drink a lot of water. Bring own bottles.
47. Visit allll the bathrooms- they're all unique.
48. Go on the caresoul in the castle.
49. Wish in the wishing well.
50. Go to Toon Town!
51. Don't throw your camera on the Roger Rabbit ride.
52. Don't listen to silly stories boys tell you.
    
53. The food really is worth it, trust me.
54. Their popcorn is amazing.
55. The Mark Twain ship ride is fun.
56. Canoeing is fun and tiring.
57. Have fun- as much as possible.
58. A Bug's Life is really amazing.
59. Watch your feet- strollers present.
60. When going on the Grizzly River Run, try standing in line next to interesting people. That way you can chat with them on the ride.
61. Asian girls who speak no English are the most fun to sit next to.
62. Don't be next to someone smelly. BO is horrible.
63. Go with as many friends as possible.
64. Go shopping at night. But make sure you're able to carry everything on your way home.
65. Home= hotel. So make sure your hotel feels nice.
    
66. If you don't like the room, tell them!
67. Take the cheesy Disneyland pictures in Toon Town with the weights and while you're in jail. You'll love them for as long as you live, seriously.
68. If you meet people from out of state, say hella and brag about California as much as possible.
69. Buy as many souveniers as possible!
70. If you're with twins, you'll be a huge hit.
71. Make small talk in line, it's fun and makes waiting in line seem like it's moving quicker.
72. Matterhorn is totally worth it.
73. The Story Book is best at night!
74. Disneyland's Tomorrowland (by Buzz's stage) has the best breakfast potatoes.
75. DO NOT GET SICK.
76. Do not touch your face.
77. Wash your hands constantly, bring hand sanitizer.
78. Wear sunblock!
79. If the Pirates line looks long, wait in it, the line moves by quickly.
80. Remember who the father and son are in the Max/Goofy relationship.
81. The best way to pass time in lines is to have conversations, dance, sing, laugh, take pictures. If you just stand there, you're going to be bored out of your mind.
82. TAKE MILLIONS OF PICTURES. It may feel like you take too many. but really, there is no such thing as too many pictures. And when you get home, the out takes are the best.
83. Try your best not to get caught on rides.
84. Remember: you're in the happiest place on Earth! Try and live it. Don't let the rude and angry, jealous people ruin your time with happiness! Put a smile on!
85. No matter how long the line.. Indiana Jones is totally worth it.
86. Go see the Aladdin Show.
87. Go on all of the kiddy rides. They're fun and workers deserve a break from all of the little kids.
88. Do you want the best burger in the world?! Go to California Adventure and take a right. There is the Pilot's Grill. They are expensive, but ginormous, and so worth it.
89. It's cool if you meet people one day and hang out with them the next.
90. When you want to eat, eat either before or after the usual times for a meal.
91. Have fun!
    
     

I stayed home from school. This morning I woke up with a tummy ache, and I got ready for school saying "I HAVE to go to school." I went to get dressed, and I was slower than ever. My mom said, "are you sure you want to go to school?" I said yes, of course, but my tummy denied me. I took off my pants and socks and shirt. It was nerd day, and I missed it! But I didn't have anything to wear for it anyway- I really need to get some suspenders or something. Okay so then I lay in bed with my tummy ache and text Jimmy for a bit. Then I fall asleep, and I have this dream, okay.. Let me tell you about my creepy dream.

I was sitting on a bed with my mother and there were about 3 beds with my mother and Kirsten.
I went to jump, and I ended up flying and not coming down. This is when I realized I was being levitated by something- or someone.
So, I think it's cool at first. But then I try to get down, and it won't let me.
Then I lift up my legs, then my arms, and I'm floating. So I'm like, "MOM! KIRSTEN! I'M FLOATING" and I think it's way cool. But they're just sort of 'whatever' about it, like it's an everyday thing that people float.
So I'm sitting there and my dream flashes to me trying to jump. And I am totally jumping and STAYING in the air. But then I can't get down.
So then I'm standing there with shorts on, and Kirsten is like "oh my God. What is that on your leg?" and I say, "I don't know, I'm too afraid to look." And I was too afraid to look. I did not want to see my leg messed up.
Then I went to my mom, and she was about to take a shower, and I said, "Mom, wait, look at my leg."
She looks at my leg. And says, "oh yeah... That's baaad. Cover it up."
And for some reason we all agreed I shouldn't call the hospital.. or a priest.
So I go and put on pants.
And I'm still way too scared to look at my leg.

Now I wake up. And my leg is hurting where the thing was on my leg in the dream. But it goes away eventually.

So right now, I'm watching The Holiday and I need to read my book, Gates of Fire. I have to read to page 200 as of Friday, and I'm on page 157. I wonder how far I have to read tonight!
Have a good day!

Hola chicas y chicos... Tonight, it was my recital for the year. The last one, too. The last time we'll do those dances. Last time for Out of Africa and Hollywood and California Dreamin and Zorba the Greek and Hip Hip Chin Chin. But, after all of the hardwork, it looked nice. Most of us had smiles and we all looked beautiful.

I've got another performance at 12:00, I'm leaving here at 11:15 and I have to shower and put makeup on and do my hair, and I'm sitting here on the floor- eating Top Ramen in a cup. OH! Then I have to stretch because last night I had to stretch there and do plies and releves back stage, and all the dads and moms were back there... creeeppyy.
lol! I forgot to tell you! Last night! A little kid pulled the fire alarm and they had to restart the daddy-daughter dance. :)

Okay! SHWR

I'm excited because my dance recital is tonight, I have to go get ready so I don't look like a mess on stage. : O